My Own Bohemia


missing our vacation
September 7, 2008, 11:15 pm
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When my grandma dropped us off at the terminal she hid her tears behind perscription sunglasses and her pink lipstick smile. she is so beautiful and loving and sometimes when she laughs i get a glimpse of the girl she must have been so many years ago in the hills of West Virginia. Someday I will be an old woman too and when i am

I hope I laugh just like she does. 

I am heading home in cowgirl boots and dreamcatcher earrings- getting ready to watch a Box DVD set about a serial killer with a quirky smile and eat the 100 calorie popcorn we bought this morning. I already miss the Texas sunflowers and dizzy windmills and smell of bacon in the morning. I miss you complaining about the heat and his stupid cowboy jokes ad riding in the backseat of a golden car with my Ed Hardy loving boyfriend. I miss the bike rides on gravel roads, the pedicures by short haired brunnettes just out of prison, the baseball games we knew the Rangers couldn’t win, the grumpy gorillas and animal loving Quakers at the zoo. I miss the way you kissed me in the rose garden before i took our picture and sneaking into your bedroom to ask you how you like your eggs in the morning. I miss finding stories I wrote on my grandma’s old typewriter stuffed away in random drawers- stories that have been there for years but she never threw away. Even though they were shit she loved me too much and I don’t think I could ask for better grandparents. I miss our vacation world we escaped to for a week but it’s time to fly back to reality.

I’m just glad I’ll be sitting next to you. 



adventure with you
September 2, 2008, 1:35 am
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Yesterday I slept in for  the first time all summer and when I woke up I felt rested and perky and ready for a picnic with my favorite brown eyed boy. I tied my hair up in unwashed pig tails and topped it off with a red bandana, threw on cutoff shorts and ying yang flip flops and spent at least twenty minutes in the kitchen trying to create the King of all sandwiches. when i finally unveiled my delicious creation and set the Playmate Cooler aside you bit into it and asked me if my step dad made it. I licked melted chocolate off of my fingers and looked at your sun burnt face across from mine at the rickety old picnic table. Yellow fields stretched out behind you and all I wanted to do was grab your hand and go on an adventure. Together we walked down to the creek and i made you hold my shoes while I tip toed barefoot into the muddy water. I was looking for crawl dads under moss covered rocks but all I found was an eight year old girl in a blue bikini who was afraid of crickets and had just lost a tooth. She let me into her little second grade world like I was a sister or cousin she hadn’t seen in a while and I wondered if her mother ever told her not to talk to strangers. But all her innocence made me smile so we both gasped when her brother grabbed a snake out of the water and I waved her goodbye when my feet started to hurt and I wanted to be alone with you. After you helped me climb back up to the trail you told me that little girl talked just like me- random and friendly and totally unaware that the words coming out of her mouth might leave people shocked or confused. Innocent. Careless. Maybe a little crazy too. I think we need more 8 year olds in this world. 

I begged you to rent a paddle boat but you were hot and tired and I could tell that our adventure was coming to an end. So we talked about our favorite seasons and sweated in your car all the way back to my house. We played basketball on an abandoned court in my neighborhood and ended the night eating cheese coneys and drinking your Monster-Float concoction. Energy drink and Ice cream just don’t mix but you said it tasted like sweet tarts and drank the whole thing. Just another reason why I love you. We are leaving for Texas tommorow and I know they are promising hurricanes and rainy days but my forecast is full of cowboy hats and mexican dinners and homegrown melons and new plane tickets for me to scrapbook.